Counterpart

Counterpart : one or two parts that complement or correspond to each other.

Isn't that just deelightful, even with my random word thingamawhatsit the topic seems to fit right in...although I don't know what to say about it yet...

Counterpart...counterpart...counterpart...you know, it kind of sounds like it should be your opposite, not your match...just because of the "counter"part of the word...

Anywho...you don't really think about a/your counterpart when you're little, it's not something with a high priority; such as having fun, not understanding what others say, seeming retarded at times, screaming, and annoying your neighbors until it would be an honour for someone to run you over in the middle of the road. But as you get older, all ( ok not all, having fun, and seeming retarded are still pretty high on my list ) these things change...you become more sociable; maybe not a social butterfly, maybe more like a social antelope...your friends become more important, and then there's school to worry about. (<--- extremely long run-on sentence) Some people bury themselves in schoolwork, while others totally ignore it; and fail classes (Darcy), but I have digressed. It usually happens in high school/middle school (8-10), you meet someone and it's no big deal at first. You talk occasionally in class or at lunch, or wherever you see this person...and maybe something happens to them or you...or maybe you're like House and you just realize things for fun, but in that moment, you know...that A you dont really like them or B that you couldn't stand to see something happen to them, and you can't stand being away from them. If A, nothing happens friendship continues on. If B, you realize that: You would follow them to the ends of the earth and back again (twice). You love to see them smile, and you try to cheer them up when they're sad, you try and be there for them. They are always running through your mind, always your center of attention, you can't stop thinking about them; how beautiful and funny and smart and perfect they are. What makes them so perfect? You see through any flaws they might have, and all you can see in them is their potential to be something amazing. You can't believe you've met this terrific individual, that YOU of all people would be so lucky... And even if they don't know it, even if THEY don't understand, you do. Soon enough you figure out that they are all you need in life, that as long as you have them, everything will be okay. But you don't think they think what you think about them, and you have an awesome friendship going, that you don't want to take a chance on ruining...but you want to know if they feel the same way. You don't how what to do or how to say it, so you pretend it doesn't matter, you push it down and hide it. Not long after it starts to eat away at you, slowly worming its way into your heart, and it takes control. It seems like in a perfect world it should all work out, and you would be together forever...but the world isn't perfect, it's flawed, coming apart at the seams and nothing is what it seems. You hope and hope, but you'll never know 'cause you're not brave enough to ask...Eventually you end up going your separate ways and regret it for the rest of your life, thinking "what if..."







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