Love

Some have it, some don't. Some deserve it, some don't. I know where I fit in there. Maybe I'll move up one someday, maybe I won't. Who knows. All I know is, this girl is amazing. She's everything you could ever ask for, bundled into a beautiful package. I can't even begin to describe how I feel when she looks at me, even for just a second. Knowing that she actually feels the same way about me, gives me some hope that life can in fact get better than this. Now I understand, that sometimes you have to wait, if you want the best. And I'm perfectly willing to. I just hope that she understands how much I care about her, despite my problems (which I have a lot of). I can't show her because it scares me. I'm afraid that I'll do something wrong, and she won't accept it. It's a stupid, irrational fear, and I know it. Last thing I wanted to say is, I am trying. So I'm sorry for everything I've done wrong. I'll always love you. No matter what happens in life.